To whom it may concern-
It has come to my recent attention that the amount of curveballs life throws us is NOT in ANY WAY relative to how many curveballs we as people can handle. Everything happens for a reason. Obviously. But that reason is based on circumstance. If one is presented with a choice and they choose a path, then obviously that person could not know the outcome if they chose the other option. So, therefore that choice is a product of circumstance and the proceedings of the choice are now and will forever be the circumstances of the decision.
What do you do with your time? What do you do with your money? Will you ever be good enough? Why are you even trying? Are these the kinds of questions that a normal person should ask themselves everyday? Would asking these questions and answering them internally everyday be harmful or helpful to a normal person? It is said that one should not compare themselves to their neighbors in order to achieve fulfillment and happiness. But, what if you're not motivated to move forward in your life and you become stagnant and you look over and your neighbor has all of a sudden has reinvented their life and they have a nice place to live and a kitty and a corgi and they're happy and they have a nice job and they don't have to worry about making rent and that lights a fire under your ass to step up your game? One shouldn't dislike the person for having everything that you want to have in life. You just want those things. It has nothing to do with the person. It's selfish. Sometimes your decisions in life have to be selfish.
Being selfish doesn't always mean that you selfishly choose whatever YOU want to do whenever. You can selfishly choose to make someone else happy because that's what will ultimately make you happy. You can selfishly choose to make others feel good about themselves because that's what makes you feel good. Being selfish isn't always a bad thing. But, being selfish because you feel like you "have" to in order to further your career and sacrificing your personal life is not a wise decision. At the end of the day, what should make you happiest are the people you're surrounded by. Not by how much you liked your job. There should always be a balance. But, what will you have to give up to find that balance?
-Sydney the Destroyer
